Oblivious

Having trouble sleeping?

Sat, 25 Jul 2009 01:08:47 -0400

I think it’s safe to say we’ve all had a tough time sleeping every now and then. But I just keep finding my mind wandering to things that are unpleasant.. all those worries that seem to fade away throughout the day just to come up when you’re already physically exhausted. The result, mental exhaustion and depending on the situation, emotional exhaustion.

Yesterday was my birthday and really I just wanted to have some fun with some friends although usually my birthdays are train wrecks. Actually a train wreck would probably be more appealing than some of my birthdays. Anyway, went down to Matt’s place and I hate to say this but something really upset me. The only thing I really wanted for my birthday from anyone.. including him.. was a fucking cupcake. I don’t like material objects or people spending money but its a damn cupcake, you think that I would be able to get that from him? Nope. Don’t get me wrong.. it’s not even the fact that he didn’t get me the cupcake.. but he got me a card. Which is great and everything… but where’s the thought in the gift? I would have rather him giving me something that’s homemade. Make me a card! Draw me a picture! I guess it’s too late now.

It’s hard to feel like no one cares about you especially when your birthday rolls around and the people that you think care about you most can’t even be bothered to call you or even send a text message. Instead the people you take for granted, aka your family are always there and I’m starting to really realize this. The only people that I can rely on.. the only people that I can fully trust are those that have been there for 19 years. My parents and siblings. Oh, and myself.

I feel alone. I know I’m not, but I feel it anyway. As fun as last night was, I would have ratherd a romantic evening picnic.. or medieval times. Both kick ass. Apparently I’m not worth the thought or effort, so… what am I doing with these people?

In 9 hours I will have arrived in Calgary to enjoy all the...

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 14:45:47 -0400

In 9 hours I will have arrived in Calgary to enjoy all the southern hospitality in Canada!

"If you start to look at life as, ‘Let’s see what happens if….’ then there is no such thing as..."

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 14:41:30 -0400

“If you start to look at life as, ‘Let’s see what happens if….’ then there is no such thing as failure.”

- Long interview from Practical Personal Development Podcast. | Derek Sivers (via kareem)

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Wed, 08 Jul 2009 12:36:42 -0400

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Leaving on a jet plane.

Tue, 07 Jul 2009 12:13:04 -0400

I do know when i’ll be back again.

Goodbye Ontario, Hello Alberta!

5116.) i'm afraid that i'm not good enough.

Sun, 05 Jul 2009 23:55:30 -0400

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Sun, 05 Jul 2009 21:40:18 -0400

Wondering why something happens just inevitably brings more heart break.

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 11:32:15 -0400

Wondering why something happens just inevitably brings more heart break.

santinaa: (via ssomuchlove)

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 11:31:27 -0400

santinaa:

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lickystickypickyme: Teddy NOOOOOOO….

Fri, 03 Jul 2009 12:39:05 -0400

lickystickypickyme:

Teddy NOOOOOOO….

When God gives you lemons, you say “fuck it” and get a new God.

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 23:00:20 -0400

When God gives you lemons, you say “fuck it” and get a new God.

"Love doesn’t walk away, people do."

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 19:58:24 -0400

“Love doesn’t walk away, people do.”

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Wed, 01 Jul 2009 23:08:44 -0400

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Things used to be so simple!

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 23:00:25 -0400

Things used to be so simple!

New you

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 22:52:49 -0400

Everyone fantasizes about creating a new persona, but what’s the point when ultimately you’re going to be unhappy knowing that you’re actually lying to everyone around you?

I have encountered many people in my day and seeing them change from one personality to the next is frankly hilarious, and a little scary. Who knows when their minds will snap like dry and brittle twigs.

I have also been encountering people from the past. Ghosts if you will, ones that don’t seem to just stop by and say hello from time to time, but ones that like to haunt you. I need to call an exorcist. When you don’t speak with someone for a long time and then they just randomly show up everywhere you are, it can’t just be a coincidence. They’re the people that have known you from when you were little, or knew you growing up, that know every little embarassing factor about you, and tend to let things ‘slip’ out of their mouths. I embarass myself enough as it is without you people! Can’t karma just give me a break?

I leave for calgary in 7 days. I’m gone for 15. It’s going to be a wonderful change of scenery for a while and I’m looking forward to seeing my bestfriend and all the good looking cowboys out there! Yee’haw!